Overcome with sadness

Cold and heavy, a soul that lingers in a room of silent whispers...
I hear their voices, calling my pain, calling her name, maybe it's the same.
Hands made of shadows dance around, playful... Reach for me, sinful...
They grab me and pull me, lift me and toss me... Hopeless.
Like an old doll, its playtime over, so has my body lost its will to move.
In nothingness I stay, looking without seeing. Endless darkness.
Fear.
The icy touch, a link to reality. The falling of drops, a countdown to insanity.
If ever I had control, it was lost to the agony of this room...
Stains on the walls become a message for the living, the art of believing.
Waiting for the light, dressing in red every second of every night.
Will it ever end? Colorless drops are lost forever.
Bottomless pit for the mournful, will you give me shelter?
Pain.
Spreading like a disease, merciless and cunning, going for the kill.
A glorious death for the unseen victim, smiling a stake through the heart.
My fate was to suffer... My redemption denied...
Marked from birth and to the last breath, my purpose was one.
The black curtains, witness to my revelation, filter the light that signals the end.
Fire of my life, will you forgive me?
Weakness.
And then I sleep.